I Wish I Want

I wish I could put everything I feel into words
Find someone I could tell every single event
and would comprehend really understand I
wish I knew myself what's going on in my head
I want to scream at the top of my lungs and free
myself from all the bullshit that oppresses me Get
sick to my stomach and throw up all the drama that
just stresses me I wish I could cry a whole day and
make every tear an once of relive Write a poem that's
longer then a page and make every word represent
a new beginning I want my life to be simple just for
one day be worry free at least for a couple of seconds
I wish I could go back in time and never meet some
people not get so involved with one person in particular
I want to go to sleep and wake to find that everything
makes sense I wish I want to dream to see the end
To find the strength and inspiration to start again

Starts With Goodbye

I was siting there in my bed I turned off my
phone and it fell out of my hand.But I knew
I had to do it and the heart wouldn't understand
So hard to see myself without him I felt a piece
of my heart break But when your standing on a
cross road there's a choice you've got to make
I guess is gonna have to hurt I guess I'm gonna
have to cry and get over this love in order to
continue with my life Is said that sometimes
moving on with the rest of your life starts with
goodbye I know there's a new horizon some where
up ahead just waiting for me But I thought I'd reach
it with him by my side sometimes life so bitter sweet
Time heals all the wounds that we feel some how
but right now I guess is gonna have to hurt I guess
I'm gonna have to cry and get rid of this love to move
on with my life but is said that sometimes moving
on with the rest of your life starts with goodbye
I knew I had to do it and my heart wouldn't understand

There is nothing like a kiss in the rain !

Insanity

I feel the dark cold clammy touch of it

It haunts me in my dreams It makes

me cry and wonder why I suffer as I do.

I wonder when it will go away

When the pain will subside

But as I sit here in my false reality

My mind and soul slowly die.

My tears stain my cheeks as they slide down my face

It hurt so long, so long I've kept these tears

deep inside That relief is bitterly sweet.

My head is pounding and my brain is swimming

My eyes are red and sore I feel my heart

is at its last I can feel the fear no more.

My body is slowly numbing

The pain is almost gone I close my eyes and prepare myself

For my mind is at its last.

My throat goes dry as sand

My skin is freezing cold

But I lie awake

Eyes as wide as ever

But my mind has become no more.

Revenge

The hurt and torture deep inside,

The scalding pain of hate.

The sadness deep inside my soul,

That anger did create.

The anger causes pain inside,

Too deep to understand.

And the pain, in turn, will cause,

More hate, more fuel for my revenge

The scourge I lay upon you now,

You surely cannot break.

This curse will last for on and on,

Cause hurting me, for sure has been, your worst mistake

Walking Suicide

I'm a walking suicide
but you'd never know cuz
I hide it I got too much pride
to show my depression
I think about dying everyday
but I just never say so
cuz if I did people would
try to stop me, stop
me from succeeding
my goal. I fold my letter
up saying how I'm sorry for
being a disappointment to
my family and how you'll all be
better without me. You'd never
think little baby girl would try
something so bold didn't
know that the mold you
made her into turned it's grin
and that hell really does exist
in her eyes and she cries
for god to please just let her
die and be free for once from
the reality she lives in
But all this you'll never
know cuz I hid, just to much
pride but the matter of fact is
I'm a walking suicide

A way back home

I've been wandering down this road to long I'm just trying to find my way back home cuz the old me is dead and gone she's dead and gone........
After so long I realize that in life we have to have values and friends by our side
Today I see the little things for so long I looked passed Now much more mature I see I was selfish and I apologies to anyone I might have hurt along the path. And I was silly when I fell for some idiot that promised me fairytales but I'm over that stage now for my sins I swear I've paid. I've paid for my shear and more for tears of blood I've shed
But I get the point I've learned my lesson But I look to the right and there's no one by my side I look left and still no signal of anyone
So I look up to the sky and ask Why?
I've been wandering down this road to long I'm just trying to find my way back home cuz I swear the old me is dead and gone dead and gone....