Hot guy

writing workshop

 Yesterday we had a workshop with this guy at first I 

didn't want to go but once I was there I really liked it

we all got to write and then shear out I liked how most of 

our writings sounded alike I never knew I had so much in common 

with some people I see everyday but never talk to How weird is that.

 

I don't know what to say right now I'm in class 

I don't want to be here and I have lunch next which 

I totally hate non of my friends really have lunch with me and 

is so loud in there I just hate lunch I just wish I could go home

and call it a day!

Today

Today my mother made me come to school it is mad cold outside 

and it is snowing I almost busted my ass mad times I was so mad

I should be home right now not in school writing this shit  like really

anyways I might as well make the best out of having to be here if you

know what I mean I'm behind on so much work I don't know if I'll ever 

make it up and it sucks this was meant to be my best year and is not 

Blank moment!

Right now I don't know what else to blog about
I'm just going to go hear some music and see if I can get
any ideas so I can come back latter and write something
that isn't a pounch of bullshit Even though some of my blogs
are really good I have but thought into them but now I'm just having a blank moment so
whatever I'll try this latter !!

Here goes nothing!

well I need 40 blogs in order to pass my class so here
goes nothing I don't have shit to say since shit an't happen
today so here goes nothing I sit here and try to rhyme try to make
up some shit here on the spot just to fill some empty space so here goes nothing!

Can't believe

I can't believe I was so stupid to fall for your stupid lies I can't believe I fell for your games
that were so plain to see I can't believe I didn't hear the people that tryed so hard to tell me who you
really were. But even more I can't believe you want me back that you think I would really
give your stupid ass another chance I can't believe I'm even wasting a blog on someone like you
God like really I can't believe it!!

My reflection

I feel the change in the things I do in my words 

I know I have changed I see in the way the people around me look at me 

but when I look at my reflection thats when I'm sure

The face that looks back at me looks more mature some how everything I've

been through shows clearly in my eyes 

But there's a good side to everything I feel stronger I look it to 

I have changed my reflection never lies 

I don't know

I don't know anymore what I want to do with my life 

so soon I have become so unsure I thought I new I thought 

I had it all figured out all planed out on a simple

easy plan so easy to follow now everything has fallen apart

I'm not sure I know what I want anymore and it sucks to be me right now!!

Sometimes somedays

Sometimes it feels like my life is over like the world is gonna end but thats just sometimes

somedays I don't want to go on I just want to give up and be done but thats just somedays

sometimes I wake up in rage I just want to yell to anyone thats says my name but thats just sometimes

somedays I just want to cry cuz my hearts in pain but thats just somedays

sometimes I just need a friend who can give me hope or maybe a hug but thats just sometimes

somedays I just need to lie say that I'm alright but thats just somedays

But I know that I'll be alright because its just sometimes and somedays!

"Points Of Authority"

Forfeit the game
Before somebody else
Takes you out of the frame
Puts your name to shame
Cover up your face
You can't run the race
The pace is too fast
You just won't last

You love the way I look at you
While taking pleasure in the awful things you put me through
You take away if I give in
My life
My pride is broken

[Chorus:]
You like to think you're never wrong
(You live what you've learned)
You have to act like you're someone
(You live what you've learned)
You want someone to hurt like you
(You live what you've learned)
You want to share what you have been through
(You live what you've learned)

You love the things I say I'll do
The way I hurt myself again just to get back at you
You take away when I give in
My life
My pride is broken

[Chorus]

Forfeit the game
Before somebody else
Takes you out of the frame
Puts your name to shame
Cover up your face
You can't run the race
The pace is too fast
You just won't last

[Chorus]

[Chorus:]
You like to think you're never wrong – Forfeit the game
(You live what you've learned)
You have to act like you're someone – Forfeit the game
(You live what you've learned)
You want someone to hurt like you – Forfeit the game
(You live what you've learned)
You want to share what you have been through
(You live what you've learned)

"From The Inside"

I don’t know who to trust no surprise
(Everyone feels so far away from me)
Heavy thoughts sift through dust and the lies
(Trying not to break but I’m so tired of this deceit)
(Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet)
(All I ever think about is this)
(All the tiring time between)
(And how trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me)

[Chorus]
Take everything from the inside and throw it all away
Cuz I swear for the last time I won’t trust myself with you

Tension is building inside steadily
(Everyone feels so far away from me)
Heavy thoughts forcing their way out of me
(Trying not to break but I’m so tired of this deceit)
(Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet)
(All I ever think about is this)
(All the tiring time between)
(And how trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me)

[Chorus]
Take everything from the inside and throw it all away
Cuz I swear for the last time I won’t trust myself with you

I won’t waste myself on you
You
You
Waste myself on you
You
You

I’ll take everything from the inside and throw it all away
Cuz I swear for the last time I won’t trust myself with you

Everything from the inside and just throw it all away
Cuz I swear for the last time I won’t trust myself with you
You
You

Mondays

I hate mondays because I hate having to start a new week and
having to go to school but in the other hand I like Mondays because
they go by fast I have the easy classes and I get out at 12:30 and have the rest of the
day for myself !!

Cindy

Cindy is the one that is always lost so we always joke
a lot on her which is funny but she knows we just play around
She is quite or at least thats what other people believe the people
that don't talk to her much But yeah we a cool group!!!

Sonya

Sonya is one of my friends she is the crazy one!
I have a lot in common with her so I guess that makes
me crazy to! But I love her she is super funny we stay
having jokes about everything!!

My Day

Today started off a little weird I didn't want to get out of bed but it got
better once I got to school I mean I can't have a bad day with my friends
they are so crazy but I love them they can always make me laugh!!

An old friend

During the break I met up with an old friend that I had like 4 years
that I didn't see I think it ended up being like the best thing
that happened over break I looked him up on myspace and Aim and we got
to talking is kind of cool we have more in common now then we did before
after one day it was like those 4 years had never passed like we had always been in
touch!!

Today

Today I feel so bad don't know really why just feel like dieing
I just have to much going on my life right now sucks
My year started off fucked up But I want to keep hope that things
will get better I'm just talking shit I don't really believe that!!